who i am ?

week 13

sometime, i will think about the question which always be a question mark in my mind.

WHO I AM

Have you have the experience like me?

sometime, i will wonder who am i right now? Am i get lost in this Utar maze?

Maybe you may wonder why i said like that, but it actually what I felt through in my university life. At previous, which i am not a utarian yet, i feel excited can become a part of a utar's member.I really look forward to my university life although i will not longer live with my lovely family member. But the thing had coming with a different way. I felt i get lost, i had lost my passion, lost my kind. I start to doubt myself is it really me? It is the inner spirit which belong to me? I heard someone told me, university is like a social life, is it true? For me, i had trust that university life is very wonderful, you may meet someone which can cheer you up, you may made friend with others and you may feel the feeling of love and caring from lecture, tutor or even friend. In  real, maybe not.World is reality, is not always talk about and care about others. sometime, you may get hurt by someone, but you still need to pretend there is not any bad feeling and even effect to you. I thing this is very uncomfortable. you can show the real. What are you thinking about, what are you care about. Because the more you show, the weak you are.

someone told me, it is a process in every human life. Don't too care about this, just do whatever you want to do but which will not go against your humanity. Until now, i still can't accept this concept and the process which had judge as a process foe all the human begin. 

Sometime, I look happy, but in real  may not. Until now, i found and realize, i had lost my smile and even getting less and less to made a smile which come from my inner heart. Have you same with me? 

Today, i come out with a solution. Since the world is reality, i just do and be what i what to be is already enough. In this world have many different person which with different characteristic and personality. They might not made all the others person prefer him or her, but they can choice the way  to present themselves. 

A human life's road  is too difficult to walk without any obstruct.

At least i try to convince myself i can overcome it.

Sometime, you may feel lost  in your life. Let handle it in a easy way, don't think too much just be brave do what you want to do.

Now, I promise that ones day  i will find back who am i and a smile which come from my inner heart.